“Up until my senior year of college, I was always the good girl. I was the confident, smart, and dependable girl. Then the Christian girl, who evolved into the “Church” girl. In my opinion, those are two very different things. Honestly, I was downright “perfect” – or so I thought.
Maybe that was the issue. Maybe I was so used to being rewarded for good behavior that I couldn’t motivate myself to stay “good” without external motivation. I needed someone to tell me, “You’re doing a great job” or “good girl” or “I’m so proud of you.” But no one owed me that.”